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When Kelly Clarksonis ready for a change, she doesn't mess around.
Increasingly unhappy inLos Angeles, where her Emmy-winning talk showhad been based since 2019, the "Stronger" singer followed her internal compass to New York last year—not even knowing if a diehard Dallas Cowboys fan like her could truly feel at home—and hasn't looked back.
"Sometimes you don't knowwhat life has in store for you," Clarkson told Peoplein January, "and you think your life is going to go one way, and it's okay that it doesn't. You never know how beautiful that might be."
She was, of course, talking about more thanheading east.
The Grammy winner, who is celebrating her 42nd birthday April 24, had to regroup piece by piece following her drawn-out divorce from Brandon Blackstock(which, despite being finalized in 2022, is still playing out in court). Andshe was left indire need of new surroundings for her and the kids she shares with her ex, daughter River Rose, 9, and son Remington "Remy" Alexander, 8.
"For the past few years I'd just been showing up and smiling and doing what I'm supposed to do," Clarkson said, "but you can only compartmentalize so long until you break."
As it turns out, though, life doesn't suck once you're free from a situation that was holding you back, personally or geographically.
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"If you're on the same path at the same time—and you're actually working together, and every day communicating together and doing the work—I think that [marriage] could be beautiful," Clarkson reflected last year on Glennon Doyle's We Can Do Hard Things podcast. "But for me, it wasn't that and it was very limiting."
Shepointed to her own ego as to why she stayed married for seven years despite what felt like a constant game of"tug-of-war" between her and Blackstock.
"I'm like, 'I can do this. I can handle so much,'" she explained. "My ego is like, 'I can control my actions. I can control my reactions. I can do this, and I can reach this person and I can get through.' And it becomes a little bit of your ego that gets in the way."
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But she did eventually reach her breakaway point, filing for divorce in2020. And finally feeling whole, she's been in norush to become half of a couple again.
"Not that I'm against it," she told E! News last June about getting back into the dating game. "I'm not, like, bitter or, 'Oh, I'm still broken.' I'm not mad at all. I'm very happy. I'm in a great place. But you know, I've lost a bit of me, like in my previous relationship, and I love having her back."
But while she isopen to meeting Mr. Right if he comes along ("I'm just not looking"), Clarkson's thoughts on getting remarried lean toward never again.
"I never wanted to get married the first time," she toldPeople. It was important to Blackstock, she noted, "but I've never been that person. Because I've been through a couple divorces in my family, I just don't like to put any weight on it. It can happen; it doesn't have to happen. For my kids, I definitely would never even think about it until they're out of my house."
Which may be a more permanent abode by then, but for now her home is a rental that's walking distance from Central Park and The Kelly Clarkson Show's 30 Rock studio.
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"I was like, 'I'm not living here unless it's right by the park and really nice for the kids,'" ClarksontoldUSA Todayin October. She admittedly would have picked Montana, where she already owns a home, "butyou can't really do a show from there quite yet. So I was like, 'The only other option would probably be New York.'"
Taking that leap of faith, which also included leaving L.A.-based The Voicelast spring after a total of nine seasons, has been well worth it.
"I am in such a great place, not only with my kids, but with me personally and with the show," Clarkson continued. "I feel like a weight has lifted. That move was very needed. I think the thing I'm most excited about...on a selfish level, is just showing up to work smiling and actually meaning it. That's a beautiful gift that you don't realize until you're out of it."
Though you could probably tell just bylooking at the ever-radiant star—who has shared that being diagnosed as pre-diabetic inspired her to finallyheed her doctor's advice and shed some weight—that the Big Apple agrees with her. (And she made sure to catch the Cowboys when they were in town playing the Giants.)
"I did not think I was gonna love it so much, but you will see this face all the time at the park," Clarkson, who's credited all that walking with helping her get fit, gushed onTODAYin September. "My kids love it, they love getting on the subway. My son doesn't allow us to stand near him, so he looks like he's by himself."
But chalk up Remy actinglike Mr. Independent to the city's charms. He "walked out of the school here and was like, 'This is where I should be,'" Clarkson toldPeople. "So it's amazing that work is going well, but as a mom, that's a win for your kid."
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Even better, of course, is work and family going hand in hand, suchas when Remy and Riverjoined her onstage during her Las Vegas residency last summer, or her daughter contributing vocals to "You Don't Make Me Cry," off the deluxe version of her 10th studio album,Chemistry, which came out last June.
"They both are little entertainers," Clarkson told E! News. "They love pretend. They love make believe and creating worlds." Hence her phone being full of videos of Remy (who accompanied Mom to the Grammys in February) and River "dancing or singing or acting or doing something in the house."
Whether they follow her footsteps into showbiz or not, the singer relishes being able to"just show them everything that you think might be helpful and see where they go."
And inthe meantime,Clarksonhas set her compass toward happiness and is staying the course.
"I think it's what you surround yourself with," shesaid on TODAY."Making sure you're surrounding yourself with people that you share similar things, obviously people that progress you as well, as a human. Like, what makes you happy? And if it doesn't make you happy, just stop doing it."
Which she knows from experience iseasier said than done.
"Moving here has helped," she added, as didexorcising her divorce demons throughChemistry.
"I've always written from a very personal, raw place," Clarkson said, but "super-personal" tracks like "Me" and "Mine" showcased herevolved skills as an artist—and as a person. "I think as we all progress as humans, you mature and your sound is different. What you have to say is different, it holds different gravity."
But, she acknowledged, "it's a hard record. It was hard to make."
Not just because it meant revisiting heartbreak, either, but "because I didn't want it to be a divorce album," she explained. "I wanted it to be a relationship album.So there's good stuff on there, like 'Favorite Kind of High.' It wasn't all bad. I wanted to celebrate that as a whole."
And yet, Clarkson added, "For the most part it's sad. That's how I work through what's going on with me."
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So perhaps her next album will becalled "Happy Days Are Here Again," at least in spirit. (Though we wouldn't object to moreBarbra Streisandcovers if she so desires.)
Life is "so full in the best of ways," Clarkson toldPeople. "It could be full of chaos—because it has been at times—and it's not. It's just full in the most beautiful ways. Everything is hitting on all cylinders."
Meanwhile, we know all you ever wanted was more family snaps, so keep reading to see the sweetest pics from Clarkson's beautiful world with Remy and River:
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